confessions of a stalker

"i see you". thats a line from the movie "avatar" where the characters say it to express their love and presence for each other. i wish i could do the same for you. say "i see you" then run my fingers on your face and make you feel my presence. but thats fantasy. i know it will never happen.

everyday i see you in your office or shall i say i look for you rather. the only reason i pass by that hall where your office is in is because of you. everyday i want to see the smile on your face. its like the effect of coffee in the morning. it keeps me running all day. and even on days when your having a bad day i still feel joy. i think it makes you more human than a person who hides their anger, pain and misery. it makes you the opposite of me. i can see the warmth of this world through you. your emotions feed my hunger for life. youre the sunshine on my rain. the only problem is all i can do is to look at you.

one night after your work i saw you outside the gate. i couldnt help but notice every move you make. your every step seems like a bridge connecting me to you so i traced every step. the further you walk the closer im getting to you. then i can smell your perfume. it intoxicates me. its like a drug filling my bloodstream with a high. you stopped walking for a while and looked behind and i panicked. i felt my heart stopped when you glanced at me and i froze.  you continued walking till your far again. i tried catching up but i couldnt risk you noticing my intentions.

you crossed the street and waited for a jeep and i had a problem. i was there standing on the other side thinking should i continue following you? or should i postpone this and hope that i get another opportunity to do this again?

a jeep stopped in front of you and you entered it. i quickly  crossed the street but the jeep started moving and i was left behind. i saw you looking at me. you tried to stop the jeep but it was too late. the driver didnt stop.

i was devastated as i walk home. my mind was full of thoughts. the pain of never getting in that vehicle with you. but as i think back i was filled with joy when i saw you trying something inevitable just for me. the gesture of stopping that vehicle for me. i knew then that we had a connection. a short but memorable connection at least for me.

i can still remember the scent of your perfume that made me high, the smile that got me going and the glance that almost gave me a heart attack. oh i wish i could have more but when i saw your facebook account i saw someones arm around you. the hope that i felt turned temporary. i got broken.

boredom meets cheesy

 the tragic story of wanting drama

its raining hard outside. shes sitting quietly while hes trying to figure out the building tension between them in that moment. awkward glances were countless as each second pass.
after a long time of silence.

"im sorry. i dont deserve you" she said with a cracked voice.

he stood there staring blank at her not knowing any reasons of what it all meant and then he asked her." are you breaking up with me?".

tears fell down her face then she replied, "i dont love you anymore, im sorry". she grabbed her bag and ran outside. it took minutes for him to digest her heart cutting words.

 "i cant let you go" he whispered to himself. "i cant let you go, i wont let you!" he shouted. he stood up and stormed out the door to find her.

after a few blocks, he saw her on the other side of the road walking slowly looking behind some times to see if anyone was following.

"Anne! Anne! talk to me please!" he shouted. his voice mixing in with the sound of traffic and rain. "Anne!" he shouted once more and she noticed him.

she stopped walking and faced him. cars constantly passing in between them. "please come back! its raining!". he said.

"im sorry. youre too good for me. i dont deserve you John". she replied.

"i dont care. i love you! and i dont want to lose you." he cried.

she looked at him and felt sorry for him. it was after all just a test of his love. trying to see if he'll beg her to come back.

"please come back. please" he pleaded.

she didnt say anything. she looked at him for a while. she turned away. she was thinking of walking away to see how far he would go but her conscience stopped her. she looked for him but he was not there anymore. all that she can see was cars now stuck in traffic.

after a short while the cars started moving again and when she looked over she saw him on his knees while soaking up the rain. her face lit up.

"hey!" she shouted. 

John stood up and smiled.

"i thought you left." he said.  

"I cant" Anne replied.

"Why?" John asked again.

"you  stopped me." she answered.

he laughed and shouted. "Anne, I love you!". 

I love you too John says Anne softly.

"what did you say? I didnt hear you. wait, im coming over." He happily said and started crossing the road. She smiled in excitement.

He cant take her eyes off her. when hes already halfway she couldnt wait any longer so she started crossing as well to meet him halfway. suddenly a bright beam of yellow light flashed from his right side of the road and followed by a long loud honk. the car tires screeched, drifted and it hit a body. the body flew and rolled a  couple of meters away from the car.

moments later, the rain had stopped and street lamps were lit. people came out of their car to see what happenned. the crowd was talking, whispering and took pictures of the whole scene. a couple of cars pulled up on the site. blue and red lights blinking alternately fast. from a distance another body was found. a man in uniform came over and inspected the 2nd body. it lay on the ground shivering, eyes wide open staring in space and whispering "i love you".

 

 

which character did you kill in your mind while reading the story?